Just BE

It's a groovy kind of feeling, sitting in--the in between space.

The projects for operation "settle cabin" are complete.  Andrew and I can sit and be.  We are in that space where allowing and creation occurs.  It is exciting and a little scary.

Andrew left a little while ago to take Bodhi to school.  It had been rough to get Bodhi to go to sleep last night.  Andrew eventually had to lay down the consequence of taking all Bodhi's train playing away for today.  Not fun, but, unfortunately that seems to be the only thing that works as a leverage with the little bugger lately.  He is SO smart.  And he is working it!  Pushing those boundaries where ever he finds them.

This past Sunday we stopped at our local 7-11 for a bathroom break at the beginning of an hours long drive.  There were 3 toddlers under the age of 4 in the pick-up truck parked next to us.  The father had left them in the two door truck alone, without car seats, to go in the store.  We watched as the littlest got out and swaggered over in his diaper to the store doors.  The dad, apparently upset that the other two boys weren't watching their brother, raced out and proceeded, with intense anger, to slap each child quite hard.  The look on their faces as each got hit, repeatedly, was excruciating to witness.  Andrew and I drove away a bit shook up.  It got us talking later---we understand the desire to wallop our little one---boy do we feel it sometimes, but to actually see someone do it......makes it PROFOUNDLY clear  that that is something we would never want to really do!

The birds are singing happily, the dragonflies are fluttering about and the occasional confused coqui frog gives his little mating chirp--not realizing the moon is long gone.  It rained just enough last night to keep the catchment tank full, I completed my morning cleaning routine--of sweeping and cleaning up after breakfast and all that is left of my chores today is to put away all the wonderfully clean laundry that I did yesterday at my friend Carrie's house.

It is such a nice arrangement.  I bring our laundry to Carrie's every week and a half after I have dropped Bodhi at school.  We sit and talk, catch up on much needed girl time and have lunch.  I can get 4-5 loads of laundry done and folded before I have to leave to pick Bodhi up at 2:30pm.  On laundry days, Andrew will take our garbage to the dump in Hilo, do some errands and have some Starbuck's time for himself.   Lovely.

Today is the first day that is truly without agenda.  An in between space.  A time of reflection, of relaxation, of surrender and rest.  I know the "honey buckets" need to be composted today---but after that Andrew and I can just BE!

We are ready for more clarity.  Ready to get clear on the next steps.  Thanks for coming along on the journey.